Never ending story…

I grew up wanting to be loved and was denied by not only two parents (because they had different priorities) but also two step-parents who hated me for being different (I’m biracial) and they all took it out on me physically and mentally.

But I never let that stop me from seeking out a better life and love…

I went to school and joined the Air Force. I mended my relationship with my mother and stepfather but still needed to seek a life partner and married a military man. Til death do we part didn’t include he cheating so he left.

But I didn’t let that keep me from achieving my dream as a Chief in the Air Force…

After a hard divorce, I dedicated my time to my work and was rewarded with countless awards, medals, honors, etc. but it wasn’t enough. When I needed protection, support, and love, they all shunned me and anyone who did help was fired. I spent three years in and out of hospitals (including being diagnosed with cancer during this) because they wouldn’t acknowledge the facts and they harassed and bullied me when I was the one who had been sexually assaulted by a few of their good ole boys. When even three interviews on NBC, a civilian court ruling, and countless doctors submissions couldn’t stop them, I bowed out before I made the one attempt I couldn’t come back from.

But even that didn’t stop me for I decided to move forward…

Until two months after my discharge I found myself with a headache that is different than my usual and lasting longer than normal with no relief. By the 11th, I made an appointment and my PCP said my blood count look really off, sending me to the ER. Well it turned into a week long stay with them thinking it was HIV to Evan’s Syndrome, which is hemolytic anemia and ITP, and Lupus. They told me to follow up with my doctor because they found more things but those weren’t the priority. Come to find out I also was diagnosed with migraines, neutropenia, and a few other things that are too complicated PLUS a cranial aneurysm.

But I told myself I wasn’t going to let this get me down…

The problem now is with autoimmune diseases, disorders, dis-whatever you want to call them, once you have one, they start snowballing and the problems can add up. I know mine have and it’s hard to stay positive. In fact, I was told today (22Mar2017) my lupus may be stable now but I have fibromyalgia. Thanks, doc. I’m barely 37 and I’m poppin’ more pills than I had dates my whole life!

But I can’t let it keep me down cause I don’t know how this story is going to end or when

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